Jan 24, 2009

Happy Saturday crafters. I can not believe I have been MIA for a week. My goodness where did the time fly?! This has been a very interesting week to say the least.

On Wed I was lucky (NOT) and got to have a Transvaginal utlrasound. They found I have several cyst and fibroids some have burst causing a lot of pain!!! They have me on some medication to help stop pain until I can get into see the OGYN to see what they are going to do. You would think they would work me in but heck no I get to go on the 2nd of Feb. Nothing like waiting huh!

On Tuesday I found out that Hospice is being called in for my Grandmother. That in itself was very hard to hear. My grandmother and I have always been close and to know her Alzheimers has gone from stage one to four in a matter of two years is difficult. As a Matter of fact my son Justin and I are the only two people grandmother remembers right now. I speak with her everyday on the phone (she lives in Texas) and I can hear it in her voice that she is ready to be with the lord. I am very torn right now due the fact they had to have a hospital bed brought in, she is now in diapers and has the be feed, bathed and you get the picture. Here's where I am torn, My grandmother is one of the most remarkable women I have ever known. I always wanted to have just an ounce of the strength and courage she has. I dont want to see her the way she is right now. I want to remember her the qay she has always been, strong, tough, sweet, smartest person I've ever known. I dont want to see her broken. Does that make me selfish? I know god doesnt give us more than we can handle but dang it I sure wish he would slow down a bit! LOL

Needless to say I havent even walked in my play room all week. I am planning to work on some type of project to keep my mind busy. Anyone have any great ideas?! Other than That my very good friend Marji and I are planning on visting another good friend to go to the Great american scrapbook convention in June. I am really looking forward to getting together with the girls. We always have a GREAT time together!

I hope you all have a wonderful Saturday night.



1 comment:

  1. T I am so sorry to hear about your Grandma! Look at how beautiful she is. I am sure hearing your voice on a daily basis is comforting and wondefully familiar to her. What a sweet granddaughter you are. I hope you're feeling better and that the medicine is helping a bit. Huge hugs until June!! :D